Ive failed you

Once again---I have failed you all...I apologize for the constant lapse in my writing.

In the last 3 weeks since I have last graced you with my presence (hah) much has happened. 

1.  I am currently a week and a a half away from RNR! YAYAYAYAY!!!

2.  On the topic of RNR Ive booked, paid for, and managed to get everything as ready as it is going to get--which was almost the end of me!

3.. Ive manage to weed out a lying, shady, untrustworthy "friend" from my life.  I mean, being friends with someone should not make you physically and mentally exhausted....which while i am on the topic of this "poisonous person" lets discuss "one-upping" or the "green mushroom" (from Mario-lol)

It is so aggravating and frustrating to never have the last word.  It is impossible to get a word in when someone else always has something more important to say.  Its exhausting knowing that no matter what illness, medical condition, rough personal life, crazy kids, crazy family, or medical emergency you have that one person ALWAYS has it worse!  And to rub salt in the wound---them "having it worse" is a lie.  Why??  Why??  Ill ask again--why??? Why cant you for once in your life just shut the hell up and give someone, ANYONE else the spotlight??  I am tired of having pitty parties for you. I am tired of hearing how you have it so much worse than everyone else.  I am tired of you.  

Maybe that's it??  Maybe this eye opening turn of events is fate.  Maybe its God's way of giving me a "get out of jail free card" because he knows just as well as I do that this will not end good.  This will not be pleasant and all you tend to do is bring me down.  I can no longer support you AND me...and sorry but I am pulling the selfish excuse.  I need to start putting my needs first...I can not longer babysit you and ensure you are happy while I sit here wishing that I was listening to nails across a chalk board rather than hear your voice...

Yes, yes that is it.

God is right.

And he knows all.

And he has managed to remove me from a situation before anything regrettable was said or done.

Thank you God.

You are the bomb.........dot com!