the truth is

so...the truth is this:

For some reason unbeknownst to me I have been "playing/trolling" on the computer for the past 3 hours.  I got some "cleaning" bug earlier today and scrubbed my kitchen and bathroom and managed to do all my laundry.  I did my school work, ran to the store, and still managed to waste the past 3 hours of my time sitting here on the computer listening to country music and browsing pictures online.  Matthew refuses to go lay down in his bed but insists on laying across the living room floor covered in a blanket with a pillow stating "im not tired!"

 ~whatever--hes tired~

As I listen to these songs I sit and think how many people really have the "life situations" that are depicted throughout music videos nowadays.  I mean--how many of you people have some half naked cowboy standing outside your house singing you a love song why you debate forgiving them?  HELLO! they are half naked and surrounded in flowers and candles--you better get your butt outside and join him in being half naked!  Or how many of us have really met our soul mate over produce at the grocery store?  And unfortunately knowing someone since kindergarten and growing up to marry them after playing in the sandbox for the past 20 years is not possible for me....There are few (actually none) people that I still speak to from elementary school much less the sandbox era.  

We moved---alot.  My dad was (well still is) in the Army.  Sometimes I wish that I had the life where I could say "we have been together since diapers" or "our moms were best friends growing up"---but I dont.  And neither will my son.  But ya know what--I have survived and therefore I think he will too.  I am a survivor in every aspect of life.  There are many lifestyle changes and situations that I have come out ahead in simply due to the fact that I am a survivor--and I chose to swim instead of sink.  

So the truth is--you are who you create.  You get out of situations what you put into them and you get can only achieve as high as you dream.  So dream big and dream high so that your life has no ceiling--no limit.